My boyfriend looks like Brendon Urie from Panic At The Disco! and it’s the greatest thing ever
Say Something Cover by A Great Big World
My cover of Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Rey!
I know this seems to be quite a ridiculous post, and like every other white girl it seems as though I’m trying to make apparent the fact that my birthday is coming up. However, that is not the case. Every year since I was little I’ve looked forward to celebrating my birthday. It means good family, good friends, good food, good cake, and yes good presents. Lately though (stemming since I was 16) my feelings have been changing towards my birthday. I haven’t liked the concept of getting older. It just means further nearing death. I’m 18, almost 19.. why should I be worrying about this? It seems quite a bit ridiculous, but at the same time I’ve seen so many around me who I’ve loved go through pain first hand or an extended pain due to unsuspecting loss. It’s horrible. And me getting older also means family is getting older, and friends. It bums me out. And it’s really hitting me hard this time of night.
I am very excited for my future and to see those around me grow and prosper as well, just the thought of how fragile life is keeps me thinking and reminds me how lucky I am. Never take what you have for granted. Everything can end extremely quick, cherish your youth and years to come while you still have them.
I’m looking for some local talent and would love to check out your material!?!
Here’s a cover of Sweater Weather by The Neighbourhood that my friend Dillon helped me out with tonight. We did this in one take and I know by no means is it anywhere near perfect but I had a lot of fun doing it, so I hope you enjoy it!!
it worries me beyond my control.
Today is a day where one year ends and a new year begins. Everyone always makes statements like “It’s a new year, make it a good one” or “this year was absolutely horrible, can’t wait to make sure next year is amazing!”, but in reality that is a very difficult thing to do. It’s not like you are able to start all over, it’s not like 3 years have past. Only one day, maybe not even 24 hours have past since you have spoken those words. How is one able to control the momentum of how their year goes in a matter of 24 hours? You will still remain at the same job or the same school or surrounded by the same people. It’s not like you have the capability to make it all disappear, just like that. And that makes me sad. I guess we do have the capability to control all of these things, but due to our hesitance as humans we refrain from change. It’s so much easier to say that we will in fact change something than to actually do it. It makes me sad to see so many New Years Resolutions failed and so many not even attempted.
However, my mind is set. In 2014, I will be focusing on leading a healthier life, along with being more active in the gym. My body and my weight have always been a major issue. It’s not like I’m obese by any means, in fact I am pretty muscular. Whenever I bring up my weight around others, particularly my friends they always assure me by saying things like “You’re not fat at all, you’re all muscle”. I can agree to this to some aspects. I do not think I am necessarily fat, I would not use that word choice, I just think there are many areas that need improvement. I am ready for that. My goal in the next four months is to train myself to eat more appropriately, leave the junk food on the shelf and reach for better choices. I am hoping by the end of this semester at school I will come back -10 pounds. I have done it before, and most definitely can do it again. I just need to set my mind into thinking “I Can” again. I need my positive mentality to help me, not destroy me which it has in the past, specifically in 2013. It’s time for a change, and I mean that. What better time than New Years, with plenty of time before summer to get the body that I want. It has pulled me down for so long, taking away from my happiness and adding a sense of self consciousness that I do not need nor want.
Here’s to 2014.