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Sep 5, 2014 / 4 notes

This week has been the epitome of a great week.

So many wonderful things are currently happening in my life and I can’t remember the last time I felt this happy or excited for my future. 

I’m finally moved back into my apartment at school and beginning to explore my classes. While I know that my schedule is a little bit ridiculous in terms of work load and is going to be extremely stressful at times, I also know how important each of these classes are towards my major. It’ll all be worth it in the long run. I’m just happy to be getting back into the swing of things and getting back into a set routine. 

Things with the record company seem to be running well at the moment as well. The artists that I am currently in connection with are all very professional in the terms that they respond back to me in a reasonable amount of time and are also direct in terms of what they’re looking for from us. This is something extremely helpful and useful to anyone in the industry so I appreciate their consistency.

Boston Calling is this weekend!! What’s greater than that?? Oh I don’t know… maybe the fact that I am getting paid to work it and listen to great music and meet great people!!?! I’m so grateful for the opportunity, a year ago I could never have imagined myself being a part of the Boston Calling Team. 

On top of that, a producer recently contacted me and told me he really enjoyed my most recent cover of Tove Lo’s “Habits”. As someone who has always wanted to experiment in the performance/creative side of the industry but felt I lacked the true talent required, this was beyond amazing to hear. In addition to that, he asked me to lay down some vocals on his upcoming album… How cool is that?!? Expanding my horizons and stepping out of my comfort zone is exactly what I need.

And lastly, I have now been with the most amazing guy for over 2 1/2 months. The time has absolutely flown by. Everything is so easy with him and I love having someone their supporting me every step of my career. Him being involved in the music industry as well really makes things so much easier in terms of him understanding. He’s experienced almost everything that I’m going through one way or another. His album is being released next month and I’m so proud of him. It’s truly a work of art and I can’t wait to see what the future holds for him as well.

happy :)

Aug 24, 2014 / 9 notes

Habits (Stay High)- Tov Lo Cover

Jul 30, 2014 / 1 note

I once felt poetry was only for the weary

I felt I was never creative enough to come up with a strand of words that was ever so catchy and ever so sweet

I felt I could never stand in front of a crowd and express how I felt

But when I wrote this small string of words, I was not focusing on just how nicely they melted together or just how wrongly they developed

Instead I focused on letting my pen hit the page and realized a rhythm will follow

And flow

And bring the following words to the page

The thoughts come so fast in my head I simply cannot keep up

And with that I have to switch to my computer

But my fingers can only type so fast

Like my lungs can only breathe so many breaths

And I’m nervous I will selfishly waste them and my thoughts will not be wisely spent

So I fear that this string of words was not nearly as important as the next text I sent: the one that said I love you to that perfectly unselfish boy

And I fear that this string of words was not nearly as thoughtful as the letter that my aunt once wrote: where she said that she never once saw a person merely as strong as my grandfather who had fallen to cancer

And I fear that this string of words was not nearly as urgent as the quick, sharp scratches of the pen against a cheap piece of paper that the homeless man was drawing sketches of horses on to sell in hopes of making enough money to buy himself a hot meal instead of relying on strangers for help

And I fear that this string of words won’t be enough to show my gratitude to those all around me. To my family, to my friends and to my future. I hope I can make you proud.

Because I’m starting to worry that I will never work as hard as that homeless man once did, or I will never express my gratitude to family like my aunt once did and I will never know how true those feelings are reflected through that text that I sent.

And I hope I can make you all proud and I hope I can live up to society’s standards because what I once thought was right no longer applies and what I once believed in no longer stands planted firmly in place.

And I’ll end this here, simply as an, I don’t know factor. I don’t know where I’ll be in 10 years or if I’ll be with that first boy who I told that I’d loved or if I’ll ever cross paths with that man in South Kensington with the ragged gloves and endless courage or if I’ll ever be as remarkable as my aunt.

I find myself focusing in on people and on things that I may never reach. I find my mind wandering at night when it should be resting and should be rejuvenating. I find my feet fidgeting and my fists clenching, trying not to let my fears win. Trying not to let the dryness in my throat take away from how far my voice travels and how my voice can project.

I shouldn’t be worrying quite this late, I should be dreaming and following that winding path.

But dreams only last for a night. And a night is shorter than anything I want to experience.

It’s unfortunate in that light, the thought that it can come and go so quickly.

A yawn sets in and I’m letting the tired win.

But when I wake what will I remember and what will I see?
I can always dream of others around me- my aunt, my first love, my courageous friend. But when will I actually see them again and feel their touch and shadow their movements. When will it all end and when does it only just begin? I’m nineteen years old and it’s so frightening,

Ive lost track of my words and thoughts in my head

Simply because they scare me and I no longer want to dream of my future but simply cherish the moments I have now. We have so little time to enjoy life and enjoy those moments given to us to spend with others.

And with that I leave you to think about the depth of this world and the depth of gratitude I have for all of you whom I’ve just shared some of my most disruptive thoughts with, as choppy as they were. Organization is not necessarily a quality that I seem to possess. 

I’m coming to terms with the fact that my body is never going to be that perfect beach body that is pictured in magazines and posted all over instagram. That’s just not how my body seems to work, and I’m starting to be okay with that. I’m starting to like my curves. I’m realizing that simply being “skinny” is not necessarily as important as it used to be. Curves are attractive and add to my individualism. I’ll keep pushing myself to maintain a healthy lifestyle, but no matter how much work I put in, my curves are not going to disappear. Since coming home from London in December, I’ve lost 8 pounds. While this may not seem like a lot, coming from a 5’2” girl, it is a noticeable amount. I’m nowhere near finished with my journey, yet I feel it’s important to celebrate the completion of a mini goal of mine… being under that 140 lb mark! My goal, no matter how long it takes me, is to be about 130 pounds and I’m already well on my way. Cheers to being comfortable in my own body again.
Jul 8, 2014 / 24 notes

I’m coming to terms with the fact that my body is never going to be that perfect beach body that is pictured in magazines and posted all over instagram. That’s just not how my body seems to work, and I’m starting to be okay with that. I’m starting to like my curves. I’m realizing that simply being “skinny” is not necessarily as important as it used to be. Curves are attractive and add to my individualism. I’ll keep pushing myself to maintain a healthy lifestyle, but no matter how much work I put in, my curves are not going to disappear. Since coming home from London in December, I’ve lost 8 pounds. While this may not seem like a lot, coming from a 5’2” girl, it is a noticeable amount. I’m nowhere near finished with my journey, yet I feel it’s important to celebrate the completion of a mini goal of mine… being under that 140 lb mark! My goal, no matter how long it takes me, is to be about 130 pounds and I’m already well on my way. Cheers to being comfortable in my own body again.

Jun 13, 2014 / 1 note

How I wish I were in your arms, tonight and every night that follows.

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Good morning
May 9, 2014 / 3 notes

Good morning

New cover posted @ http://m.soundcloud.com/lauren-bodin/radiowithout-you-lana-del-rey-cover. Thanks @dillonsalk for all the help!!
May 9, 2014

New cover posted @ http://m.soundcloud.com/lauren-bodin/radiowithout-you-lana-del-rey-cover. Thanks @dillonsalk for all the help!!

Apr 8, 2014 / 1 note

Random Questions for any/all who want to answer: Please send me a response!!! I’m really curious, I have my own likes and dislikes but I would like others opinions as well!

What do you consider as the top three most important features in a music venue?

What are some strengths and weaknesses of the local venues in your area?

What is your favorite venue and why?

Mar 18, 2014 / 1 note

Making moves in the game.

The pressure is on. Now I need to start focusing and learning every aspect and detail there is to know. Making connections and staying hungry to learn.

Feb 17, 2014 / 4 notes

My boyfriend looks like Brendon Urie from Panic At The Disco! and it’s the greatest thing ever

Feb 13, 2014 / 10 notes

Say Something Cover by A Great Big World

Feb 10, 2014 / 20 notes

My cover of Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Rey!